Frustration
Frustration at the unanswered phone calls
Frustration at the habits we won’t change
Frustration at the flightiness of my own interests
Frustration at our affair and its emptiness
Frustration at the men I don’t want to sleep with
Frustration at the women I’m afraid to sleep with
Frustration at the one who won’t stop calling
Frustration at the one who fucked and left
Frustration at reducing women to an object
Frustration at forgetting how to be an object
Frustration at the grief I have not processed
Frustration at the arc of my own narrative
Frustration at the kiss with sharp teeth
Frustration at the kiss that lied
Frustration at feeling something, everything and nothing
(Frustration at this cycle repeating)
Frustration at ideas but not people
Frustration at the idea of myself
Frustration at all the questions
Frustration at being the only one who is asking them
Frustration at the colors of my mind
Frustration at red— the color of desire
Frustration at finding a love that is right
Frustration at knowing that this is not it
Frustration at the way I look at you
Frustration at the way I don’t look at me
Frustration at the mirrors that reflect our lives
Frustration at being one of them.
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